family [??]

I dont care anymore
I'm upset
I feel pressure
I have to do this in school
&+ do this at home
Too much!!!
I am disrespectful because I give a dirty attitude??
okay...but look at those girls on tv going wild and
hit their parents and bring strangers in their house.
That what you call DISRESPECTFUL.
I dont like telling you stuff because you throw it right
back in my face.
Today, Our so called "friendship" is over.
I am not going to open up to you anymore.
Dont think im going to be comfortable.
You said this and that.
But you dissapointed.
You know what. Forget it.
You act like you was a innocent teenager.
Please!!! you wasnt!
You compare me to my cousin.
No!
She might be smart but you dont know
what she doing behind her mother's back.
And I am not going to change for you.
You're not GOD.
God controll my life and my future.
Maybe I dont want to hear your side of the story.
I want to hear somebody's else. So I could
listen more.
But today is the last day.
And I will not going to be honest with you anymore.

I will find it

Today, the sky is gray.

I see bright colors shine through the dark colors.

I like the fog because I think better.

I like thunderstorms because I can express my feelings.

I like the sound of rain because it clears my mind and fills me with inner peace.

I wonder why the sky is gray??

hmm...thinking.

I met

i met Status Quo(abdc) and Micheal Jai White (why did i get married) at Central High School. &+ OMG..it was crazy. I was screaming and dancing. Also, Status Quo was performing and Micheal did a speech about education. I was touching E-knock (status quo) chest and his back (tattoos!!) and.....yea lol.

Today was a good day.

Thinking about you.

I think about you all the time.

Think about our future.

And how long we gonna stay together.

I dont undestand why you have trust issue.

You get really jealous when I talk to my guy friends.

I dont want no problems between me and you.

Our relationship.

Our happiness.

You just dont know how you make me feel.

I feel so happy.

I dont care what people think about you.

They dont know YOU like that.

I do.

All the arguments and fussing and you made me cry.

I forgive you.

Because I know you dont mean to hurt me.

that why I give you chances.

I just want you to know that...

I think about you all the time.

Reborn

God opened my eyes.

He took the black wall off my eyes.

And see the person's true colors.

The person that I loved and made me feel "secure".

I was naive and blind.

I had these feelings that was in a black hole.

I cried every single day when I was young.

And asked God...Why??

The lady was hurt because the man she fell in love

broke her heart.

so she put the blame on my protector and me.

And made us look backwards.

It didnt last long until I was reborn from God.

I see alot of stuff and it was crazy.

3 or 4 years later,

My mind is right.

I dont need help on my education anymore.

I let go all the heartless people.

I stay to myself and start to observe.

I feel, I feel different. I feel happy and light.

I can see better.

My mind is right.

The drama is over.

There no bad things above my head anymore.

I see Good things shine through the sky.

I thank God for everything.