Her Name Is Shentel. : 2009

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

You and Me

When you see me, you like me

When you touch me, you squeeze me

When you kiss me, you're speechless

When you diss me, we're fighting

When you love me, I hurt you

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I see you (2/13/09)

everywhere I go - I see you

In school - I see you

Parties - I see you

Hallways - I see you

Every single day - I see you

When we first met

we was cool and flirting with each other

sometimes we be mean to each other for fun

Yes, I dissed you but it doesn't mean I dont want you

I do like you and today I miss you

Now, you diss and I feel your pain

Its killing me softly.

Everytime you walked pass me in school.

It feels like we're dont know each other.

I'm not desperate or sprung

I'm lost

If you were my boyfriend

I promise I will never hurt you again

If I get a chance to tell you how I feel about you

And if you accept it

I would be a better person

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Art

I rather draw than talk

I rather express my feelings on a piece of paper than telling somebody

I rather spray paint on the wall than cleaning the community

I choose computer graphics than reading a book

I rather do sculpture than do science project

I rather write a poem than write a letter to my family

I choose art over everything

Monday, November 23, 2009

Secret

I need to tell you a secret

Its better to tell you now before you find out

No, its not bad but it is not good

so relax and listen....

"my heart is beating through my chest

My hands are shaking uncontrollably

the room is starting to spin"

I think to myself

Should I tell him?

How is he going to react if I tell him?

Is he going to leave me?

Damn...

Inhale then exhale

I think I'm ready.

He looks at me and waiting to hear my secret

Why am I doing this?

He looks scared

I betrayed him

I think he is going to cry if I tell him

If I tell him...

He is going to lost his trust.

His love.

and everything between me and him.

I should tell him now...

"I have something to tell you

But I think you're not ready to hear it.

So if I were you, I would leave before it gets worst.

I have a secret.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

7th grade poem::: I need help

I need to find someone to help me

I need a home, a real home that gives me love and attention

I dont have enough love from my parents

my parents give me hate

hits, anger, and frustration

I pray everyday to have a good life

I worried, for the future and I'm fearful too

Will I be alive tomorrow?

I need help

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

old poem from 7th grade;

girls go to college to get more knowledge.

boys go to Jupiter to get more stupider.

Girls get all dressed up but they have lots of stress.

boy try to act cool but they get kicked out of school.

girls rule the school but be careful who you fool.

boys look a mess, but they know how to dress.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

if somebody say stupid sh*t

say blah 3X's

if someone talk about you

stick your middle finger up and say blah 3X's

lame excuses

blah blah blah

when boys say they love you and dont treat you right

cut them off and say blah 3X's

talk to a conceited stuck up b*tch

blah that b*tch 3x;s

lame boys tryna holla at you

blah them 3X's and diss em

friends say they got your back

don't believe them, blah them 3 times

so , when anything is in your way

just say blah blah blah

3 times!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Follow directions

Turn left

Turn right

look up

look down

pause...take a deep breath

and slow down

look up

don't frown

cheer on

let go the past

see the presence

congrats yourself for having a good day

don't hold grudges

think positive but don't be naive

turn right, don't turn left

look up but never look down

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Eyes vs Love

when i look into your eyes.
i see different signs.
when your eyes shine.
you're happy.
that makes me feel safe and secure.

but when your eyes are red...
you show hate, and itlook like you want to hurt me.
you dont know what you doing to yourself and me.
you call me names that i dont like.
you become violent and ready to fight me.
I cried and pray that this won't happen again.
But i guess it dont come true.

I love you.
but I cant love you anymore.
if this continue....

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Jammin in Jamaica

hey everybody, I came back from Jamaica. It was good and really hott there! lol.
Anyways, I had so much fun spending time with my Daddy and my baby brother Jarome. I love them so much. I wish I could post alot of pictures but I dont feel like edit my pictures. sorry. =]

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Today was my Brothers Graduation!

They graduated from 8th grade and now they are going to high school. *tears*

Jaurean Graduated from Wilbur Cross' 09.

Errol's graduation held at Brian mcmahon high school cause there was 205 students graduated from elemetary school.

I love dem equally. No matter what...They are my blood brothers.

The REID family <3

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Music::Piano:: Final exam::brainstorm&+ be creative

I was sitting in the park of last day of summer.

I didnt know why but I was full of anger.

I remember it was a beautiful sunny day and the

water at the beach was wonderful.

People was out on sun getting a tan.

Little kids playing random games.

DJ entertaining people and play the hottest songs.

Girls showing off their body and boys showing off their money.

I saw group of hippie made a big circle and acting all joyful.

I was hanging out with my crazy friends and I was so curious of why they're so hyper.

I met this boy, he was amazing and we told each other depressing stories.

He said he dont care about people and that he is heartless.

I said I promise I won't hurt him.

Our relationship start to grow stronger.

Everytime the radio play Beyonce's song called ego.

I think about him.

I went to a teen club and I caught him dancing and flirting with another girl.

My heart dropped and I started to cry.

My friends told me to calm down but I cant because I was hurt.

Next day, I was quiet and listen to the rain outside.

I heard the door knocking so I opened the door and it was him.

He was soaking wet.

He said he sorry and that he love me.

And I am important in his life.

I was touch but I dont want to show my soft side.

He was asking me for another chance.

But I told him, "no".

He was upset and yelling at me.

I ignored him and told him to leave.

Few days later, The environment was having a pizza party

I invited my best friend.

She asked me about the boy.

I told her everything and I told her that I dont need a boy in my life.

I am independent.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Teenage love; young love; puppy love;???

What is young love??

Teenage love???

puppy love???

hmmm.....

adults always say You dont know what "love" is!

but you know what!?!

they dont know what love is!

they married to the wrong person

Having kids by the wrong person

Young love can be forever

if you be faithful, intelligent, wise, and honest,

Maybe not??

But dont stress.

Cause God will help you

He will find the one for you.

Just be patient.

Monday, June 8, 2009

TODAY IS MAH BIRTHDAY!!!!

SWEET?? NAH FABULOUS 6TEEN!!!! LOL

my birthday outfit!!!

today was a good day!*

people from school said happy birthday to me

(thank you!!)

&+ im still waiting for that call from him.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Magic*

If I have magic, I would turn the rain into cash.

If I have a boat, I would make sure it carry golds and jewelry.

If I have skills to write lyrics. I would be the greatest female rapper.

If I was very smart, I would invent something that people would never think of.

If I have one wish, I would ask for 1 million more wishes.

Dont chase it, Change it.

Dont fight it, Solve it.

Dont eat it. Try it.

You trick me(3-18-09)

I thought I could trust you

But you lied to me

I thought we played a fair game

But you cheated

I thought the stuff you said was true

But you tricked me

you lied, you cheated, and you tricked me

You was the only person, I can trust

But you betrayed me

You promise that you will never hurt me

But again you trick me

You is a liar

I hate you so much

I want to throw a dictionary at you

So you could know what "trust" means

I am tired of seeing your face

You disgust me every time

when you talked to me

Your hugs aren't the same anymore

I miss your jokes and hearing your voice.

But again

You trick me

Thursday, June 4, 2009

when i grow up, i want to be...

When I grow up, I want to be a teacher.

But I dont like teaching.

When I grow up, I want to be a astronaut.

But I am afraid of heights.

When I grow up, I want to be a doctor.

But I might make a mistake.

When I grow up, I want to be a president.

But I think people wont agree my rules.

When I grow up, I want to be a police.

But I'm afraid of guns.

When I grow up, I want to be a social worker.

But I dont want to put a child in the wrong home.

When I grow up, I want to be a actress.

But I am shy.

When I grow up, I want to be a singer.

But I think people wont enjoy my music/

When I grow up, I want to be a model.

But I dont want to lose weight to be skinny.

When I grow up, I want to be......

GROWN UP!!!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

family [??]

I dont care anymore
I'm upset
I feel pressure
I have to do this in school
&+ do this at home
Too much!!!
I am disrespectful because I give a dirty attitude??
okay...but look at those girls on tv going wild and
hit their parents and bring strangers in their house.
That what you call DISRESPECTFUL.
I dont like telling you stuff because you throw it right
back in my face.
Today, Our so called "friendship" is over.
I am not going to open up to you anymore.
Dont think im going to be comfortable.
You said this and that.
But you dissapointed.
You know what. Forget it.
You act like you was a innocent teenager.
Please!!! you wasnt!
You compare me to my cousin.
No!
She might be smart but you dont know
what she doing behind her mother's back.
And I am not going to change for you.
You're not GOD.
God controll my life and my future.
Maybe I dont want to hear your side of the story.
I want to hear somebody's else. So I could
listen more.
But today is the last day.
And I will not going to be honest with you anymore.

Friday, May 29, 2009

I will find it

Today, the sky is gray.

I see bright colors shine through the dark colors.

I like the fog because I think better.

I like thunderstorms because I can express my feelings.

I like the sound of rain because it clears my mind and fills me with inner peace.

I wonder why the sky is gray??

hmm...thinking.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I met

i met Status Quo(abdc) and Micheal Jai White (why did i get married) at Central High School. &+ OMG..it was crazy. I was screaming and dancing. Also, Status Quo was performing and Micheal did a speech about education. I was touching E-knock (status quo) chest and his back (tattoos!!) and.....yea lol.

Today was a good day.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Thinking about you.

I think about you all the time.

Think about our future.

And how long we gonna stay together.

I dont undestand why you have trust issue.

You get really jealous when I talk to my guy friends.

I dont want no problems between me and you.

Our relationship.

Our happiness.

You just dont know how you make me feel.

I feel so happy.

I dont care what people think about you.

They dont know YOU like that.

I do.

All the arguments and fussing and you made me cry.

I forgive you.

Because I know you dont mean to hurt me.

that why I give you chances.

I just want you to know that...

I think about you all the time.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Reborn

God opened my eyes.

He took the black wall off my eyes.

And see the person's true colors.

The person that I loved and made me feel "secure".

I was naive and blind.

I had these feelings that was in a black hole.

I cried every single day when I was young.

And asked God...Why??

The lady was hurt because the man she fell in love

broke her heart.

so she put the blame on my protector and me.

And made us look backwards.

It didnt last long until I was reborn from God.

I see alot of stuff and it was crazy.

3 or 4 years later,

My mind is right.

I dont need help on my education anymore.

I let go all the heartless people.

I stay to myself and start to observe.

I feel, I feel different. I feel happy and light.

I can see better.